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Wondering if i should make a comic of my first kiss...
actually been on hiatus for over 2 weeks now purdy people

and still am, just leeeeting you know~ <3

oh, and on November, 25 of this month, I, a 20 year old dork.

had my first kiss.

it was wet and kinda gross..i didnt like it at first but eh i can get used to it.
I finally haz skype now on my new iPhone 4

But since I was absent for sooooo long skype deleted my account and I lost all my contacts.

Which is fine!!

Saves me the trouble Of deleting peeps I don't talk ta anymore

So it's a fresh start for me~

I don’t have cartoon network channel anymore!!!!! Q n Q

 

 

FUCK. YOU. TURNER!!!!!

for writing that journal then this

is because...


as my mother told me my aunts passing not even an hour ago.

i...didn't really feel anything at the lost.

all i thought about was how was her death going to be processed? for example the children, i was concerned for them.

i was quite disturbed that

i did not cry or feel remotely sad...does that mean something is wrong with me? for feeling no remorse? am i really a bad person now?

have i finally lost my humanity?

so far 4 deaths have happen in my family during my life time.

the first being my gay uncle ronny who died of HIV- that he got from another man. plus he was part of a group of husbands who were married to women but committed adultery acts with the same sex- lord knows what else got spread around...

when i was told he died.

"huh..." was all i thought. we weren't close. so i really didn't care and i didn't know he was gay until long after he died by the slip of a tongue by my grandmother/his mother.
but he was my mothers favorite uncle and she mourned his death worse then everyone, so i pretended to cry and act sad about his lost for her sake only.
i love my mother and hate seeing her sad. it makes me sad.

the second being a distant grandfather that i was found of as a toddler- who died from drunk driving and crashed into a moving truck that somehow beheaded him.
we did not attend the funeral and i felt nothing about his lost.

the third being a uncle from my dads side of the family/my dads brother- who died from choking on his own vomit while he was drunk.
again i pretended to cry who tried to look sad at his funeral cuz everyone else was.
we were not close.

all these family losts ive never really felt remorse...and now my aunt is dead and all im thinking is- to be blunt:

"oh. another one? damn, thats too bad." thats the gist of it.

again dont get me wronged, i ...kinda... loved them. some more then others.

but

what does that make me?

am i really cruel and cold hearted?

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actually been on hiatus for over 2 weeks now purdy people

and still am, just leeeeting you know~ <3

oh, and on November, 25 of this month, I, a 20 year old dork.

had my first kiss.

it was wet and kinda gross..i didnt like it at first but eh i can get used to it.

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schizofrenik-artist Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
hey
HEY YOU!!
You're art is rad!
/rolls away/ }}
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Rocking-Horse-People Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Heeey, bubba. How're you doin'? uvu
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jack104 Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2014  Student Filmographer
Hon!!!
Q w Q

I've been working like a dog at my new job!
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Rocking-Horse-People Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh golly god.
Well it's totally good that you have gotten around to get a job!!
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jack104 Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2014  Student Filmographer
Oh gosh I know!
8 hours a day from 5 in the morn to 4pm!
The work sucks but the pay will be worth it

Anyway I'm so sorry I was dead for a while!
Honestly I have not been online much q w q
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SabbathVoorhees Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Do you do point commissions??
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jack104 Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2014  Student Filmographer
I sure diddly do!
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SabbathVoorhees Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Awesome sauce:3 how much??
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jack104 Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2014  Student Filmographer
Whatever your willing to pay
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OsmiumMachine Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh dear lord, I LOVE your art!
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